I Should Have Done This a Long Time Ago

As far back as I can remember I always wanted to be a writer. To me, being a writer is better than being President of the United States. Of course, I was not born in the U.S, so I could never be the Leader of the Free World anyway. [A problem I share with Ted Cruz.]

But if I have always believed that writing is so great, why haven’t I always been writing?

Well, the truth is that I tried to get into writing since forever or at least since I have known about blogging. But I have always given up. I’ve created several blogs, which I deleted in a couple of days or weeks. The reason? I get cold feet easily. My cold-feet-reasoning is this: “How dare I release so shitty content on the internet! What was I thinking? I need to delete it before somebody sees it.” And then I delete it.

“But why not write for yourself? You don’t have to release it on the internet”, you might say. Well, I have tried that too, but every time I do, I end up not writing anything. I am the biggest procrastinator in the world. I never get down to creating content if I don’t have to. I need to have some pressure do get work done, and I feel like having a blog gives me a little bit of that pressure. I need to know that I’m going to publish my creations to create them in the first place.

I regret my past decisions. I am in my mid-twenties and haven’t gotten over the “amateur” phase of my writing. I haven’t gotten that 10 000 hours of experience under my belt. I expect and accept that a lot of posts on this blog are going to be horrible to read. I’ll try to avoid too much of that cringy content. [You can see that I am great at selling you on the idea of reading any more posts of mine.]

I have also tried to get into other fields, that I thought I might try out rather than being a writer. One of these possible lines of work was programming, mostly because it pays well, and it involves typing. But coding is incredibly mundane work! And without the familiar structure of a school, I can not teach myself something that tedious.

But this is the day that everything changes. I decided to stop fucking around and begin to do what I want to do for the rest of my life. And that is not to program. I am a writer. Or at least I want to be one. And with this blog, I am going to learn how to write. My plan is stick to that regular 9 to 5 job while writing as a hobby. For now, writing is just something I do for the enjoyment it brings. But this time I am not going to chicken out after a week or two. This time I will improve and become an acceptable writer. [There I go again being a master salesman for my blog.]

Even though I should have started a long time ago, I will start now. Better to be a bit tardy than never to get going, right?


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